I like these things...
and it's late and I'm bored, so sue me.
A. Attached or Single?
♥ Hopelessly and desperately attached
B. Best Friend?
♥ I have many: Victoria, Kelly, Bradley, Michael, Philip. Okay 5, whatever.
C: Cake or pie?
♥ Actually...pie. Strawberry Rhubarb pie. Or Pumpkin. Although I'm a big fan of angelfood cake...and of course cupcakes.
D. Drink of choice?
♥ Homebrewed iced tea.
E. Essential item you use every day?
♥ Moisturizer, toothpaste, lappy, camera.
F. Favorite color?
♥ yellow.
G. Gummy bears or worms?
♥ I like playing with gummy bears, but I really don't enjoy eating gummy candy anymore.
H. Hometown?
♥ PG
I. Favorite indulgence?
♥ Jar of Nutella & spoon.
J. January or July?
♥ July. I despise the cold.
K. Kids & their names?
♥ none as of yet. Although for names...I really like Autum and Molly.
L. Life isn’t complete without?
♥ snuggles, candy, undying love and caffiene.
M. Marriage date?
♥ someday.
N. Number of Siblings?
♥ deux.
O. Oranges or Apples?
♥ granny smith apples. in pie. from my grandmother.
P. Phobias?
♥ sharp things near my eyes, car crashes, lake monsters eating me.
Q. Quotes?
♥
R. Reasons to smile?
♥ dinosaur cake sprinkles. hearing sexy accents when you didn't expect to. having no chores to do when you get home from work. "oh i have an extra cookie, would you like it?", "oh sorry, we are out of medium cups, we'll auto bump your drink up to a large for free.", receiving random compliments [or flowers], finding the perfect username.
S. Season?
♥ Fall.
T. Tag people:
♥ Victoriiaaaaaa.
U. Unknown fact about me?
♥ I dream in full blown stereo surround sound, HD, real life, this-is-actually-happening-because-I-can-feel-the-breeze-and-your-hand-and-your-voice, every single night.
V. Vegetable?
♥ Rutabaga. I've never tried it.
W. Worst habit?
♥ saying "UMMMM" when I'm thinking.
X. X-ray you've had?
♥ teefs
Y. Your favorite food?
♥ oh god. so many. nomnoms here
Z. Zodiac sign?
♥ pisces. blubblub.
Wednesday
Tuesday
[it's all about the journey]
Sometimes I forget what it is like to be myself.
What a horribly sad and depressing realization.
Thus, I have decided to change this.
Currently I have only three attainable goals.
♥ pay my seat-fee for school > deadline - Friday.
♥ exercise atleast three times a week.
♥ do something for me, once, every single day.
That last one is actually probably the hardest thing.
I seem to have forgotten what it was like to be myself in the sense that I don't remember what I like anymore. Trying to find new friends with the same interests is becoming insanely hard because I can't, for the life of me, figure out what interests I have. I feel like I am stuck in that awkward pit between middle school and high school, where I'm still trying to figure out who I want to be.
I mean I know who I am, I know where my morals lie. I know when I am wrong, and when I need to stand up for myself. I know who I would like to be, I am just not sure if the people I know are okay with me being that person.
Does this even make any sense?
I want to be a geek. I want to be loved by my friends, without judgement or cruelty, for who I am, not who I pretend I can be. I want to leave behind memories for the people that do love me, call it narcisisstic or whatever have you, but I feel like time is running far too quickly for me to accomplish all I want to before my life ends. I want to do it all. I want people to know me through my doodling, through my blogging or vlogging, or through my pixels on their screens - because that is when I am truely me. That is when I don't feel ashamed to say the things I want to say, or write the things I want to write.
How pathetic...living vicariously through binary coding and a series of flashing lights. Now that is living.
My hopes are that through these actions, I will become less shy. That magically, through me pressing these keys or projecting my voice through speakers, I will build my self confidence so I won't need to hide behind a screen. One day, the only binary coding I will need to hide behind, are the numbers eched into my skin.
So...coming back together now. The last goal on my list "to do something, everyday, for me." This includes:
♥ making youtube videos
♥ writing on my blogger account
♥ doodling for my comic
♥ going on a geocaching adventure
♥ going on a random adventure
♥ baking / cooking
♥ curling up with my cats and Neil Gaiman
♥ watching way too much Food Network
♥ dreaming about meeting Gordon Ramsay
♥ hanging out on Blogtv
♥ cloud watching with Vix
♥ stargazing with Brad
...because these are the things that bring me joy.
And so I ask of you - what brings you joy? What are the top five things that you can do for yourself that would completely make your day?
It's hard for me to do...I always feel so selfish taking the time to do these things for myself but it is a necessity. Like taking birth control.
It just ain't an option.
Anyways, hopefully the next entry isn't as horribly depressing and non-sense making as this one.
Okay, love you.
-peaches
What a horribly sad and depressing realization.
Thus, I have decided to change this.
Currently I have only three attainable goals.
♥ pay my seat-fee for school > deadline - Friday.
♥ exercise atleast three times a week.
♥ do something for me, once, every single day.
That last one is actually probably the hardest thing.
I seem to have forgotten what it was like to be myself in the sense that I don't remember what I like anymore. Trying to find new friends with the same interests is becoming insanely hard because I can't, for the life of me, figure out what interests I have. I feel like I am stuck in that awkward pit between middle school and high school, where I'm still trying to figure out who I want to be.
I mean I know who I am, I know where my morals lie. I know when I am wrong, and when I need to stand up for myself. I know who I would like to be, I am just not sure if the people I know are okay with me being that person.
Does this even make any sense?
I want to be a geek. I want to be loved by my friends, without judgement or cruelty, for who I am, not who I pretend I can be. I want to leave behind memories for the people that do love me, call it narcisisstic or whatever have you, but I feel like time is running far too quickly for me to accomplish all I want to before my life ends. I want to do it all. I want people to know me through my doodling, through my blogging or vlogging, or through my pixels on their screens - because that is when I am truely me. That is when I don't feel ashamed to say the things I want to say, or write the things I want to write.
How pathetic...living vicariously through binary coding and a series of flashing lights. Now that is living.
My hopes are that through these actions, I will become less shy. That magically, through me pressing these keys or projecting my voice through speakers, I will build my self confidence so I won't need to hide behind a screen. One day, the only binary coding I will need to hide behind, are the numbers eched into my skin.
So...coming back together now. The last goal on my list "to do something, everyday, for me." This includes:
♥ making youtube videos
♥ writing on my blogger account
♥ doodling for my comic
♥ going on a geocaching adventure
♥ going on a random adventure
♥ baking / cooking
♥ curling up with my cats and Neil Gaiman
♥ watching way too much Food Network
♥ dreaming about meeting Gordon Ramsay
♥ hanging out on Blogtv
♥ cloud watching with Vix
♥ stargazing with Brad
...because these are the things that bring me joy.
And so I ask of you - what brings you joy? What are the top five things that you can do for yourself that would completely make your day?
It's hard for me to do...I always feel so selfish taking the time to do these things for myself but it is a necessity. Like taking birth control.
It just ain't an option.
Anyways, hopefully the next entry isn't as horribly depressing and non-sense making as this one.
Okay, love you.
-peaches
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